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Pretty much none of you know that I was bullied when I was younger and this story is for anyone that is or has been bullied, the moral of this post will be to stand up for yourself and quit thinking backwards.

So let’s give you an example, I lived on a pretty bad council estate and anyone who resides in the UK will tell you council estates are full of cunts, now I’m not sure if it was because of me but I got bullied for no particular reason, perhaps because I’m too kind sometimes for my own good. Or maybe it was the feeling and expressing of greatness who knows but from the first month we moved there I was fucking hated.

Now I was a pretty weak as a kid and prayed upon the weak like a bully but not out of hate or an overblown ego but because I was bullied and the only way to dampen such feelings of hate was to be the same so that’s what I did as a kid, people from infant school will randomly meet me at house parties and know who I am and what I did as a kid and I will have no clue who the fuck they are.

It’s really weird how it works but I’m a very well known person, I don’t think it’s because of any reason in particular but for some strange reason people cannot forget me, myself I see a face at a house party a few weeks later I’ve forgotten it possibly due to effects and consumption of alcohol and drugs but who knows, I cannot seem to remember anyone unless I have something to remember them by such as looks, personality, or if I spoke to them for any great length of time.

But back on path to the story I was a little fucker and every time this group of kids saw me they would attack me in a vicious rage and this went on for years and years I don’t know why but it just did and eventually around the age of 15-16 I said to myself, “Fuck this, I’m going to stand up to these kids” what most people don’t understand is that bully’s feed from fear and effect, if you show them that nothing they do to you can phaze you then they will get bored and move along. However this is not what I did, the way I went around it caused me a lot of trouble and some would say it was dumb but it worked for me so who are they to criticize.

At the time I was really into fishing and went fishing almost every day it was my release from the shitty estate in which I lived, and one of the kids who had beat me up as a younger kid came over to me, below is the conversation and/or exchange of words that took place:

Him: Give me a fag john
Me: *gets right in his face* Fuck off you little mug I’ll throw you off the fucking peir
Him: Oh. You have changed…
Me: Yeah I fucking bet *pushes face away with hand* now fuck off you little mug

And that was problem solved with that bully, and that’s pretty much what I did to all of them I mentally toughened myself I’m not talking about conquering fear but using it to my advantage the adrenaline rush you get when you are scared can be used as a very strong pain killer. I used to love that rush you get when you have a feeling of morbid fear in your chest with your heart beating so fast and your hands shaking.

I over a period of a few years ran into everyone who ever fucked with me and I acted like I had changed into some kind of physco that was not scared of anyone. When people say I have no fear, they are full of shit and are just trying to build up their ever so big ego, everyone has fear no matter who they are obviously the exception is people with some kind of mental defect that causes them to not feel fear towards anything and I’m sure they are a great danger to themselves but if you want to conquer a bully you have to show that piece of shit that you are strong, I’m not talking about physical strength because I weigh 126lbs and I was making guys twice my height/weight scared just from a little scared tactic.

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